Right now I'm in a pretty dark place, and I'm not sure why. Oh, I know my hormones are part of it, but really, I've never been this bad when pregnant before. Last night I only got about 4 hours of sleep; I wasn't able to go to sleep until about 2:30 am. Instead I stayed up reading and watching tv and crying. The really sucky thing is that I wanted to enjoy this last pregnancy, and I can't. I just can't. And I hate that. And I keep contracting and nothing is happening. And some asshole did a google search on "naked 7 year old girls" and got to my blog, and while I know that sick motherfuckers like that exist, I hate when my world collides with them, even tangentially. At least he got nowhere here.
Just having a spot of trouble seeing the beauty in my world right now, so I'll just shut up for a while.