Tomorrow is our big ultrasound - I'll be 19 weeks plus. They will check the baby out all over, and I hope the little bugger shows off the goods so we can see what it is (I have found out with all my kids - no good with secrets). This is the fourth time I've done this, and like the last one, this one will be done by the perinatologist, so it will be a level II. Last time, with Sunny, her risk of Down Syndrome from the nuchal fold test was 1/70, so that is why the perinatologist did the Level II US, since we refused the amnio - DS, for us, is no grounds to terminate. But this time? Risk was 1/3000, better than when I was younger.
So tell me, please, why the hell am I so nervous about this one?
I've never been this nervous about it before, even with Sunny. I'm so uptight about this I haven't slept well in 2 days. The kids are down the street at a friend's house, and here I sit, stewing about everything that can go wrong.
What is wrong with me?
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