Sunny Says, and Letting Go

BigDaddyFish, Sunny, and I were laying in my bed this morning. I'm snuggled up against BDF on one side, arm slung over his chest, and Sunny is sitting on his other side. I keep pretending my hand is a spider and tickling Sunny on her side, causing squeals and giggles. She suddenly lays down next to BDF, pulls the covers up to her chin, and says,

"G'night, Daddy. G'night, cweepy spider."

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I have been making a huge effort of late to try and live more simply. I have been feeling unsettled lately, out of control, pushed and pulled in too many directions, not enough time to absorb and adjust to changes as they come. In an effort to exert some control, I've been cleaning out my house, getting rid of the debris of years, detritus associated with past lives, reminders of sadness and things that bring me down, emotionally and spiritually. The letting go is sometimes hard; this past weekend BDF helped me pack up and get rid of every piece of clothing that doesn't fit or that I don't love. I've been hanging on to so many things, clothes mostly, things that fit before kids, or after one kid but not now. One of the things they never tell you about having kids when you are "older" is that the old bod just doesn't bounce back like it used to, and I haven't wanted to let go of that view of self. This weekend, I was finally ready, but it wasn't without pain.

This morning I took 11 bags of clothes and shoes to charity. This morning, I feel free, ready to move on to the next room, ready to adjust my life to how it is now, instead of how it used to be. And you know what? How it is now is really a pretty good place to be.

Biggest guilty thing of the weekend:

That, my friends, is more than 3 years of accumulated socks, waiting to be matched up. BDF and I spent probably an hour and a half matching them up, throwing out those that were threadbare and giving away those that were outgrown. You have no idea how this was weighing on me. It's amazing how heavy socks can be.

It's amazing how freeing five empty laundry baskets are. [Note: the socks aren't from five baskets - the socks only took up one medium sized basket, but I also got caught up on folding this weekend, so all my baskets were free until this morning.]

Comments

[Agincourtdb]

You just want to eat her up, dontcha?

...and I witnessed part of the sock thing. It was impressive.

[hokgardner]

I emptied my sock drawer last week. I found socks that I haven't worn in at least three years in the bottom of it - and I threw them all away. Now I have a nice little collection of clean, unholey socks. Next up - my husband's sock dresser, and I'm not kidding about its being a dresser. He has drawers of socks because he keeps buying more and not getting rid of the old.

[angi]

I totally LOVE empty baskets too :)

I am glad you are getting rid of things, it feels so good...I need to do it more often, LOL! The control thing, I get it, I feel it too.